So..... hi. I'm not exactly sure why I started this blog, probably because I wanted to feel all special and deep. And I also like thinking that my thoughts are of great interest to others.
I've never been able to keep a blog/profile/diary/journal for more than a week. This is because I have an extremely uninteresting life. But then I realized the solution: make my life seem interesting by fabricating wonderful stories of my adventures. Like yesterday when I was attacked by a mob of rabid coyotes and had to fight them off with a stick. Yes it was an exciting time, and yes I lived to fight another day.
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Yeah that's not going to work. Yesterday I went to the doctor, ate lunch with my mom, watched Merlin with my mom, and then took a nap. Thoroughly uninteresting, but I probably enjoyed myself much more than I would have if I were fighting coyotes. Besides, it's these simple, enjoyable times that I will look back and remember. I'm glad that I have a wonderful mother who enjoys going out with me and who shares my love of dorky English TV and naps. I'm glad I have a dad who's willing to discuss history with me at any time and who takes me to breakfast on Saturday mornings. And, even though he's thousands of miles away right now, I'm glad I have a brother who will carry on strange conversations with me and send me new TV shows to investigate.
Despite the obvious lack of outrageous adventure in my life, I am extremely blessed and satisfied with my lot. As Bilbo said in The Lord of the Rings, "It is no small thing to live a simple life." God certainly knew what he was doing when he gave me a simple life, and though I like to argue his timing regarding my birth, he knew what he was doing when he placed me in the 21st Century. I may not have a story book life, but I have a purpose-driven life as well as a God who is gracious, loving, and knows what he's doing. Isn't that more than enough for me? Aren't I being a bit dense to wish for anything else? Yes, and there lies one of my weaknesses. I have a hard time being content, and maybe keeping a record of my thoughts and seeing my blessings in writing will help with that problem.
I've been reading Passion and Purity by Elisabeth Elliot and have been seeing a common thread in her advice: be patient, be content, and be silent. I'm horrible at all three. This blog will follow me as I try to learn to give my whole self over to God's will and become a Godly woman. That should be adventure enough, don't you think?
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